What I'm doing now
- work in progress -
Baking the cake
Driven by understanding of how human nature and universe works I continue exploring myself, studying philosophy and spending a lot of time in contemplation. To the most outsiders it could sound like unproductive spend of time, including to my inner critic, who's worried that I don't publish consistently.
For the last year I've been distracted with a business idea of selling the self-management tool, that I created for myself, through the Gumroad. Since I was so reluctant to make it work I dropped it after acknowledging through free-writing that although it's technically possible to make it work, but not for me. I'm not driven to become an entrepreneur. The Logbook is now available per email subscription.
- where I am now -
My approach to shifting time perspective in order
- mood colors -
My approach to shifting time perspective in order to pursue self-improvement and self-expression is called ROUNDS CALENDAR. You can read about it here. This is a way to play the long game with grit.
Now is the Round 9. It took me three and half years to learn a way to maintain inner calm. When I start crying or just being upset I step out of myself. It's a recent breakthrough but given the dreadful emotional context of the first half of 2018, I feel calm and content now.
- current events -
school haircut; dancing;
- reading -
My main work-day book is "The lectures on modern European philosophy" by Merab Mamardashvili that I started in the end of June and will finish by September. Next I'm going to pick up and finish "Nietzsche and Philosophy" by Gilles Deleuze.
Occasionally I read random chapters from these books:
"Lives and Opinions of Eminent Philosophers" by Diogenes Laërtius
"Crowds and Power" by Elias Canetti
Non-fiction: finishing "The Metamorphoses" by Apuleius, that excited me so much that
The lectures on modern European philosophy by Merab Mamardashvili
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
- mottos -
Mostly on weekends:
watching the blue sky
watching the night sky
watching the grass
Occasionally, driven by spontaneous intention:
drawing with wax crayons
listening to podcasts, especially in the business category. The only exception is AKIMBO.
- quote that I'm pondering often -
теперь я легок, теперь я летаю